It’s bewildering and amazing and sad that we can never really see ourselves. Yes, one way is by looking into a mirror, but it can only do so much. We must borrow someone else’s lens in order to have a glimpse of ourselves.

Photography by Philip Rasalan

You are beautiful.

Even when you feel ugly or depressed or guilty or ashamed, there is an inner spark in you which is light. This light is your beauty. This light is your reflection of God. You are a child of God, thus you are beautiful.

Know that in days when you feel crappy and empty, when you feel dull and stale. Know that there is someone who loves you for you, with all of your imperfections. Here is a reminder: you are beautiful.

Have you ever felt dark and dull? I know we all see you as this vibrant glowing soul, but, did you, even once, felt alone and unwanted? Because I do. —by thelonelyartiste

Of course, I wouldn’t emanate this vibrant glowing soul if I haven’t experienced complete utter darkness. I still experience it, and at times I don’t want to feel it but I let it in anyway to feel alive, but I don’t let it swallow me whole. As what I have described myself in my previous posts, I am both the iridescent colours you see in the sun and the dark corners of la lune :)

"It is both blessing and a curse to feel everything so deeply."

You are not alone.

Hi Ate Pau pansinin mo po ako please. Huhu. Haha. Ugggghhh can't find enough words to express my love for youuuu. Hihi. Sarap talaga magbasa sa blog mo. :) Sobrang light sa feeling magbasa ng lahat ng posts mo abt life and other stuffs. Pati mga artworks mo, grabe! :) Loveloveyouuu <3 —by pluviophile-verasalonga

Hello dear, ahhh such a giddy feeling you got there. It made me smile. There are a lot of depressed people and teenagers who experience mid life crisis at the age of 19. I would love to help and shine a bit of light to those who get to read my posts, tweets, and writings on my social media accounts. Don’t get me wrong, I get sad too, it’s necessary to feel happy. I used to write “take it lightly dear, lightly" on the small of my wrists and I feel better. Thank you for being appreciative! xx

since you're a student of mcl. and so do I. I was wondering if you ever experienced what I experienced in encoding courses and sections. also chatting with your friends to have the same sections and courses because it seemed that you don't xD anyway, God Bless young and pretty lass ;) oh. another question. what's your verdict with David Levithan's Every Day. 'cause I'm currently reading it <3 (I apologize if I have any wrong grammar) —by loopsoflife

When I was around my freshmen years in MCL, I used to be all hyped up and we were all chatting and so do get the same sections. But be reminded, that in college what matters is your individuality. I mean, you don’t always have to be with a pack of people. In college, you’re on your own. You walk alone at times. You get things done. As you grow older, you’ll learn how to be self reliant. I can’t always depend my schedule on other people, I get the schedule that I want and is convenient for me even if it means that most of my friends took another sched our course(subject). Especially now that I’m in my 4th year, probably you’ll see me walk around the campus alone or reading or researching alone. It’s funny how I observe the older batches before, they used to be in groups but as they level up they walk alone. Same as what I have observed with my other batch mates. haha! Everyday is unconventional, fast paced, and a delight to read. It’s like an almost, a love story that could’ve been but is torn by matters of consequence, of time and space. It’s a good read.

Your blog and your art is amazing! I'm an instant fan. —by phoebemayfalame

Thank you so much! xx

Playing with my camera and my aquarelles while listening to The 1975 and having a well deserved hot cup of cocoa. Making the most outta this gloomy weather. Stay safe and dry everyone!

Playing with my camera and my aquarelles while listening to The 1975 and having a well deserved hot cup of cocoa. Making the most outta this gloomy weather. Stay safe and dry everyone!

You are not entitled to find me prettyPhotography by: Philip RasalanMore photos to be blogged from my recent urban shoot!

You are not entitled to find me pretty

Photography by: Philip Rasalan
More photos to be blogged from my recent urban shoot!

So I&#8217;ve been tagged by my fash friend Gelo. Merci! I&#8217;m not really fond of challenges like this but whatevs, this could be fun. Here&#8217;s a blog post!
Vingt faits sur moi:
I. I am both the kaleidoscopic colours you see in the glimmer of the sun rays and the shadows casted from it
II. As a kid, I used to pretend to be asleep so that my mum or dad would carry me lol
III. I am a romantic, I tend to over romanticize things but I am still aware of the &#8220;general&#8221; reality
IV. I nail bite A LOT. So I wear nail polish to avoid doing so
V. I am both an introvert and extrovert
VI. I make a weird sound whenever I laugh (note: it sounds a bit like a platypus, perry the platypus)
VII. I used to study speaking French, Italian, and German when I was younger. Just because. But I forgot all about it haha (darn it) now, it&#8217;s just Spanish
VIII. I was dead serious about being a nun back then, until my senior year in high school
IX. I tend overspend on food, books, art materials, clothes, shoes, and other unnecessary cute paraphernalia
X. I value solitude, people shouldn&#8217;t be afraid of being alone (well of course in certain situations like it&#8217;s 2am and you&#8217;re in the streets and it&#8217;s dark. Well you get my point)
XI. I don&#8217;t tend to judge easily, I&#8217;m quite fascinated with different types of people and the stories they hold within them&#8212; You can be yourself with me.
XII. I&#8217;m the type of friend who is honest and frank. I&#8217;ll tell you when shit&#8217;s up, you&#8217;ll hate me sometimes for it (cos I&#8217;m telling the truth haha) but it means you&#8217;re worth my time and I love you
XIII. I am a very sentimental person when it comes to certain things, I appreciate love notes, simple messages, little trinkets, yanno the random acts of kindness and love; cos I&#8217;m willing to do much the same for people who do.
XIV. I&#8217;ve read thick encyclopedias about space and time continuum as a kid (idk cos my mum just buys a lot of books and they&#8217;re there so why not make use of em) and I review in British accent for better info absorption lol srsly
XV. I enjoy laughing and making kulit about nonsensical things as well as deep convos. I&#8217;m quite unpredictable, laid back and hungry most of the time (hahaha when you&#8217;re w my common phrase is, &#8220;tara kain tayo&#8221;)
XVI. I used to join singing contests and was a vocalist in a teenage rock band hahaha
XVII. I have mild (hopefully) synesthesia
XVIII. I tend to lucid dream a lot, sometimes I cannot decipher if I&#8217;m awake or not
XIX. I try to live a simple life, which is the hardest to achieve.
XX. I don&#8217;t really care much about what other people think, except for those whom I love and genuinely want the best for me, the world can fuck off hahaha jknotjk
There! Hope you enjoyed reading the bits and pieces of my anatomy. :)

So I’ve been tagged by my fash friend Gelo. Merci! I’m not really fond of challenges like this but whatevs, this could be fun. Here’s a blog post!

Vingt faits sur moi:

I. I am both the kaleidoscopic colours you see in the glimmer of the sun rays and the shadows casted from it

II. As a kid, I used to pretend to be asleep so that my mum or dad would carry me lol

III. I am a romantic, I tend to over romanticize things but I am still aware of the “general” reality

IV. I nail bite A LOT. So I wear nail polish to avoid doing so

V. I am both an introvert and extrovert

VI. I make a weird sound whenever I laugh (note: it sounds a bit like a platypus, perry the platypus)

VII. I used to study speaking French, Italian, and German when I was younger. Just because. But I forgot all about it haha (darn it) now, it’s just Spanish

VIII. I was dead serious about being a nun back then, until my senior year in high school

IX. I tend overspend on food, books, art materials, clothes, shoes, and other unnecessary cute paraphernalia

X. I value solitude, people shouldn’t be afraid of being alone (well of course in certain situations like it’s 2am and you’re in the streets and it’s dark. Well you get my point)

XI. I don’t tend to judge easily, I’m quite fascinated with different types of people and the stories they hold within them— You can be yourself with me.

XII. I’m the type of friend who is honest and frank. I’ll tell you when shit’s up, you’ll hate me sometimes for it (cos I’m telling the truth haha) but it means you’re worth my time and I love you

XIII. I am a very sentimental person when it comes to certain things, I appreciate love notes, simple messages, little trinkets, yanno the random acts of kindness and love; cos I’m willing to do much the same for people who do.

XIV. I’ve read thick encyclopedias about space and time continuum as a kid (idk cos my mum just buys a lot of books and they’re there so why not make use of em) and I review in British accent for better info absorption lol srsly

XV. I enjoy laughing and making kulit about nonsensical things as well as deep convos. I’m quite unpredictable, laid back and hungry most of the time (hahaha when you’re w my common phrase is, “tara kain tayo”)

XVI. I used to join singing contests and was a vocalist in a teenage rock band hahaha

XVII. I have mild (hopefully) synesthesia

XVIII. I tend to lucid dream a lot, sometimes I cannot decipher if I’m awake or not

XIX. I try to live a simple life, which is the hardest to achieve.

XX. I don’t really care much about what other people think, except for those whom I love and genuinely want the best for me, the world can fuck off hahaha jknotjk

There! Hope you enjoyed reading the bits and pieces of my anatomy. :)

maryelficent:

Kanina ko lang sya nakilala kasi pinakita sakin ng friend ko yung instagram nya, and holla! Ang ganda nya.😍 Ang perfect nya sobra. I bet she’s beautiful inside and out. Super Idol! thepaulineanatomy

I am nowhere near dictionary meaning of perfect, but it depends on how you define it. If it&#8217;s denotative then this is how I define perfect (adj.) someone who is comfortable with one&#8217;s self, loving herself one flaw and quirk at a time, one whose beauty radiates from the soul, and is more focused on making his or her character beautiful rather than the superficial. Meh, I&#8217;m still flattered sweetie, for someone to find me &#8220;perfect&#8221; even in the dictionary sense hehehe stay inspired, live beautifully xx

maryelficent:

Kanina ko lang sya nakilala kasi pinakita sakin ng friend ko yung instagram nya, and holla! Ang ganda nya.😍 Ang perfect nya sobra. I bet she’s beautiful inside and out. Super Idol! thepaulineanatomy

I am nowhere near dictionary meaning of perfect, but it depends on how you define it. If it’s denotative then this is how I define perfect (adj.) someone who is comfortable with one’s self, loving herself one flaw and quirk at a time, one whose beauty radiates from the soul, and is more focused on making his or her character beautiful rather than the superficial. Meh, I’m still flattered sweetie, for someone to find me “perfect” even in the dictionary sense hehehe stay inspired, live beautifully xx