It’s bewildering and amazing and sad that we can never really see ourselves. Yes, one way is by looking into a mirror, but it can only do so much. We must borrow someone else’s lens in order to have a glimpse of ourselves.
Photography by Philip Rasalan
September 28, 2014
So I’ve been tagged by my fash friend Gelo. Merci! I’m not really fond of challenges like this but whatevs, this could be fun. Here’s a blog post!
Vingt faits sur moi:
I. I am both the kaleidoscopic colours you see in the glimmer of the sun rays and the shadows casted from it
II. As a kid, I used to pretend to be asleep so that my mum or dad would carry me lol
III. I am a romantic, I tend to over romanticize things but I am still aware of the “general” reality
IV. I nail bite A LOT. So I wear nail polish to avoid doing so
V. I am both an introvert and extrovert
VI. I make a weird sound whenever I laugh (note: it sounds a bit like a platypus, perry the platypus)
VII. I used to study speaking French, Italian, and German when I was younger. Just because. But I forgot all about it haha (darn it) now, it’s just Spanish
VIII. I was dead serious about being a nun back then, until my senior year in high school
IX. I tend overspend on food, books, art materials, clothes, shoes, and other unnecessary cute paraphernalia
X. I value solitude, people shouldn’t be afraid of being alone (well of course in certain situations like it’s 2am and you’re in the streets and it’s dark. Well you get my point)
XI. I don’t tend to judge easily, I’m quite fascinated with different types of people and the stories they hold within them— You can be yourself with me.
XII. I’m the type of friend who is honest and frank. I’ll tell you when shit’s up, you’ll hate me sometimes for it (cos I’m telling the truth haha) but it means you’re worth my time and I love you
XIII. I am a very sentimental person when it comes to certain things, I appreciate love notes, simple messages, little trinkets, yanno the random acts of kindness and love; cos I’m willing to do much the same for people who do.
XIV. I’ve read thick encyclopedias about space and time continuum as a kid (idk cos my mum just buys a lot of books and they’re there so why not make use of em) and I review in British accent for better info absorption lol srsly
XV. I enjoy laughing and making kulit about nonsensical things as well as deep convos. I’m quite unpredictable, laid back and hungry most of the time (hahaha when you’re w my common phrase is, “tara kain tayo”)
XVI. I used to join singing contests and was a vocalist in a teenage rock band hahaha
XVII. I have mild (hopefully) synesthesia
XVIII. I tend to lucid dream a lot, sometimes I cannot decipher if I’m awake or not
XIX. I try to live a simple life, which is the hardest to achieve.
XX. I don’t really care much about what other people think, except for those whom I love and genuinely want the best for me, the world can fuck off hahaha jknotjk
There! Hope you enjoyed reading the bits and pieces of my anatomy. :)
September 15, 2014
Hello, just a quick update before taking my 3D exam cos it’s Wednesday night and we have no internet at home. I cry. Nonetheless, I hope everyone’s safe! I am still not able to blog because crazy week + three hosting stints this coming week!!! + Sun’s internet is down. Thank you for all the lovely messages! I promise to write as soon as I can. I’ve read a ton of books during the storm and I can’t wait to share a lot of things to ya! Plus, new favourite books. I still feel drowsy and tired maybe due to academic work and the bipolar weather. Au revoir! (for now)
Stay inspired, kids!
Laugh it off and learn to love the questions themselves. ♡
Back to school, back to night class selfies
So I was listening to music while doing a 3D character and my friend Rae passed by and we decided to have a selfie break. There are tons of photos but these are a few that I managed to save on my iPhone from the Mac lab.
Clicked too early
Checking my hair bun selfie while drawing
Tuh-da! Here’s a quick character turn around sketch I did. They said it’s easier to animate mechanical things like robots and cyborgs hence the robotic joint movements but I want mine to be fluid even though I know that it’s hard :-) Well, good luck to meee! I seriously need a new laptop though like a high performance one for all my digital art, editing and 3D… but I know God will provide! :)
P.S. Happy Independence day! I know someday we will truly be free. But for now, let us not dwell on the negative things in our country, rather, empower ourselves that we need and can do something to change for the better. (That was quite big and optimistic for me to say cos I usually hate our government and don’t even get me started. Haha. Cheerios!)
I’ve got both war and poetry in my head
There’s so much going on and I feel excited to take more risks and just be. Slowly, but surely. Oh and hey, we should enjoy being ourselves.
Do not worry, be happy.
Simple, yes. Stop making it complicated. Life is temporary. It isn’t forever and that’s what makes it special. ‘Cos we are reminded to just enjoy and take things lightly and to just love and give it our best shot. Make mistakes, make more mistakes, fail and succeed. Cry, laugh, jump, scream, eat whatever you want, hug someone, kiss someone, tell your parents you love them, wrestle your siblings cos they won’t be kids forever, forgive others, forgive yourself, when someone is being mean to you repay them with kindness cos they need it the most, be understanding, be loving, appreciate the little things; cold morning showers trickling on your skin, being able to drink a cold glass of water on a hot summer day, having lunch together with your family, breathing, being able to sing even if you got the lyrics wrong, feeling your own heart beating after a merry laugh, appreciate it. You are you and that’s a wonderful thing cos no one can be you and as well you cannot be others. Take risks and do whatever makes you happy. You can be genuinely happy and it will shine out of you like sun beams with sun kissed cheeks and glowing eyes. Promise me to try again, to never give up on yourself, cry if you must, but when you wake up in the morning, even if you feel like you’re dragging yourself outta bed, I’m reminding you that it’s never too late, you’ve got another chance, and it’s amazing to be alive.
Hi, I am Pauline, I like disappearing once in a while to find the meaning of life. I also like listening to sad alternative songs at night and jumping and dancing to pop songs in my pajamas in the morning. I have my breakfast at lunch and lunch during dinner. I try to sleep early but it doesn’t work for me as much cos my thoughts keep me up at night and I try to write them down on my journal and once in a while blog it here in my little world on tumblr. I find myself more and more detached to the world all the while being attached to more important things. Does that make sense? No? I figured. But it’s okay, I don’t get myself too at times. I believe in my hopes and in my dreams although it’s hard to do so sometimes. But I hold on anyway and find renewed strength in me. I keep saying “I believe” until I believe it myself too. I don’t like religion but I undeniably believe in the Higher Power and love. I believe in a lot of things, haven’t you noticed? I don’t know, I must say I am a romantic and I am okay with that. I hate indifference, it makes me sick. I want to make everything beautiful around me and that will be my life. I write a lot too, I don’t care if it’s bad or insanely good. I just want to write and read and write and draw and do a lot of other things. I don’t really care a lot about people but I especially like the positive ones. But I try to love the negative ones too, cos I think they need it more. I must say I’m an extrovert and introvert all the same. So if you wanna join me in this journey of mine, you can if you want to. Come along.
I think books are magical little suckers. I believe that when we step into a bookshop or library of some sort not knowing what to buy or pick out just leafing through the sea of stories sifted in covers embracing it within, we don’t go find books; they find us. Like an inevitable pull of gravity, something that is for us, will come to us. The right books will find a way to us. Talking as we jerk a tear, making us smile at just he right moment, making us realize things that we forget and providing a much needed escape to another realm and providing us with brand new lenses when we go back to our own reality. When we step into a bookstore, not knowing what to buy, go on and allow yourself to wander. Feel the spine of the books, your finger tips gushing unto its skeleton and ripping it open. It unveils itself to you, for you, just as you are with it.